Unreal Reality

What do i do with the grief that's piling up?

where do i look where i won't see blood?

what do i do with the despair, the helplessness?

how do i stop this within my own body?

how can i distance myself from something that cries blood?

how can i look away from this that

... it's not the first time humanity has failed

but we thought we were past it

it's not the first time humanity has failed

but this time it's a collective failure

it's the failure of the strong to protect the weak

the failure of those with voices to voice the voiceless

the failure to find our own better selves

this is it

this is the result of a gaslighting on a level we didn't think we would see

and all this is all right

but what do i do with the hollow in my stomach?

what do i do with the blood rising to my throat

as i watch one side of the world burning

and the other carrying on as usual

this doesn't exist

this isn't real

they aren't dying 

in this strange unreal reality

if i can turn it into tears and let it flow

maybe i can still save my own self

even though i still can't save you

even though i still can't save you

I'm sorry

the fault is mine